A vibrant artist from New York City is thrown into the mire of Miami culture and becomes unexpectedly pregnant. Moving from one man to the next she dismisses her soul for the sake of survival. Marrying a Master of the traditional Chinese arts she is assaulted in her new persona while simultaneously upholding an ancient lineage within modern society. Her integrity and determination are a double-edged sword as she battles for self-identity and self-love. The deep introspection of daily journaling for the sake of sanity created a relatable story of suppression and also gave birth to a glorious series of questions and answers clarifying the past towards a resolved future. The workbook is included in the memoir for readers to raze their own demons. The book is a stunning success story of choosing possibilities over fear and triumph over suicide.